Learning to be Patient!

Today I woke up grateful about where I am at in life. I may not have much, but I do have an amazing and supportive man as a husband. Now, I was not always grateful, I nagged a lot about where I was at in life, and always lived life wishing. Wishing to graduate from college, wishing for a better job, wishing for a better car, wishing for more money, wishing to be married, wishing, wishing, and wishing. It was never an end to my wishing. Do not get me wrong it is okay to desire, and have big dreams. However, it is important to desire it with a good attitude, and trusting the process in life. I would always ask my husband how he maintained a positive attitude during our hard times, and he would always say, ” I trust in God”. of course, I would look at him and say “SO DO I!! But I am still anxious!” I wanted to run and achieve my goals in life from one night to the next morning. I had to really learn the term PATIENCE. I worked with autistic children, and really thought I had this whole patience ability down. I was wrong. Patience is not only tolerating children’s behavior without getting upset or frustrated. There has to be a fundamental process to gain patience. I had to seek for an internal purpose in order to have the patience. My purpose as an ABA therapist, is to give a quality session that will make a difference in the long run. I may not see a difference in the child’s behavior the next day, but I probably will in a couple of months. I had to really take a look at my life, and analyze my purpose of being in this world. Live life step, by step, and enjoy the present.

New Blessings

As the year comes to an end, I have realized the blessings God has poured in to my life this year. There were times of trials, and hardships, but God always manifested His Glory. This year I learned to be patient, and actually listen to my close ones. I always had a plan in my life. It made me feel secure about myself. However, most of my plans would not come through, and it would upset me. Until I realized no matter how angry or upset I would get, some moments were out of my control. I decided to give up trying to put all the pieces of my life together, and let God take control, because His plans will always be better than my own. It might not make sense right now, but one day this piece of my life will explain itself.